Seeing the blessing pour from heaven

Blessings.

Blessings come in all different ways, different times in life.

Blessing can have a huge impact on the way you see the world, and your self.

The last couple months I have had my moments of depression, let downs, and even done things that I knew better of. As most of you know I have gone through things in my life that have shaped me into the woman I am today. I have gone through the good, the bad, and the ugly. I have always had a testimony and have been grateful that the church was always there for me. 

In the last couple months blessings have been poured down on me from my Father in Heaven. I have always been worried about money, being able to pay bills, having enough for rent, gas, food, activities with friends. Back in February, I had the 'idea' to pay 2 months rent just in case I can't pay rent, or so I didn't have to pay rent till April. I don't know why I did it. Well now I know why. I don't know if I will be able to pay my rent in full for November. No need to worry.

A couple months ago I took a leap in faith and applied for a lot of positions to be a teachers assistant for a special education class. Well if any that know me know that this is a dream job. I had given up hope on finding a job. One day I got a call for an interview. The school was right down the street from my house. I went in for the interview.  It didn't last as long as I had hoped. So I blew it off. A couple weeks later I got the call saying they wanted to hire me. 

ME! 

I was so excited. I had to wait a good month to start the process to get into the classroom. I had to take a test. If anyone knows me knows I stress myself out about tests. There was two parts to this test. First was the teacher kind of stuff, how to teach, how to respond to students, how to react, and how to handle learning situations. The other was about reading, writing and arithmetic. Reading and writing?! Oh please kill me know! I hate that stuff. Ugh I was so sure I want going to pass. But luckily I did! I passed both tests and am now an employee of APS!

I just love to look back over the days, week,s and months and see The Lord hand in my life. I mean he was there during the dark times, and helped me through all the bad things. I think what strengthened my testimony the most is that I have just given him my life so to say. I got blessings when I need a little boost of confidence, or strength. As I was on my way to take these test, I said a prayer and said if this is the path I am supposed to go down, please help me get there. I walked into the testing center with my head healed high and calm as ever. I give my Heavenly Father all the credit for all of it. He has helped me and blessed me. He has blessed me by being able to help these kids. I will be working with children that have a lot of behavioral problems. Yes it will be hard and yes I know what I am getting myself into but you know what, I will be there to help and love these students. I believe Heavenly Father has out me in the place for a reason. I believe he knows what he is doing. I have given my life over to Heavenly Father hands. He knows best and I see that EVERY SINGLE DAY!!!